I have surprisingly been moving on. A lot easier than I thought actually. Then there are nights like tonight.. When you completely relapse, wishing we were back together, and constantly blaming myself. But I’m done doing this. We were too young, too stupid, we changed for each other, fought over stupid shit, had trust issues and the whole thing. Yes, we were also madly in love, would go out of our way to make the other smile, made sure we stayed true to one another, and we were each others first love. I don’t understand how you brought someone else into the picture so fast. I blame that on your immaturity. And I’m not saying that as a bad thing either. Also, why won’t you talk to me anymore? I spill out all my feelings to you an you can’t even reply?? Immaturity again?? I’m not sure. I just really wish that one day, soon hopefully, I get the closure I need. until then I will slowly but surely move on. 3

So I haven’t been on here in decades! I got a new job at this amazing cupcake place here in town. And I have been incredibly busy since then. But I’m going to try and get in here when I can. It seems to be the only thing that calms me down these days